I'm not sure why there's been so much radio silence at this end. Part of it's just getting busy at work this week, certainly, but... I don't know, there's more to it than that, even if I can't really articulate it.
I've been trying (and mostly failing) to try to start going to bed earlier at night, which seems to result more than anything else in me lying in bed, awake, with my mind going seven miles a second about anything and everything. Lots of thinking about friendship and how it defines who we are. There's an essay in it all, somewhere, if I can ever finish untangling all the emotions and thoughts from the snarl that is my mind. On the bright side, though, reviews are starting to inch forward again, and wihle they've been pretty infrequent, I'm really happy with the way the last few turned out. Running is going very well. Office redecoration has utterly stalled out again but one of these days will get back on track.
I just... I don't know... the last couple of days more than anything have felt like something's missing. I've got great friends, a good job, activities that I enjoy to keep me busy; heck, on some weeks my schedule is full to the point of having to turn down things (like no less than two different birthday get-togethers on Saturday that I can't attend, alas). So why do I feel like I'm just adrift? It's like I'm sort of fumbling even though I can't figure out what it is that I keep not quite managing to hold onto.
More importantly, when did this post turn into a Radiohead song?
...And now, the weather report. It's a sort of off-white smogtacular color of sky today, and it keeps feeling like it's going to rain but utterly failing to do so. Earlier in the day I'd been hoping and praying for a storm to just sweep through and break this eternal anticipation, but since I'll be strolling through DC this evening between my car, the bar, and the book club, at this point perhaps it could hold off for a few more hours? Please? Maybe? (No, didn't think so.)
This is unusually rambly, even for me. I think I'm cutting this one off now before it turns into a narcolepsy cure. Next time: something slightly more interesting, honest.